Updates

Geez. A lot has been going on with me and my family for the past few months, and I've really slacked on posting. There are so many posts that I wanted to make along the way, but just never found the time to. Hopefully I can get caught up soon. I'll, once again, be back posting.

Answered Prayers

Last Sabbath was the last YG lunch at the Pruehs' (our Pastor) house. Can you say sad??? They are moving to California soon.

Anyway, they have lunch at their house almost every week, and I've helped out a lot. I've been praying for someone to step up and offer their home for the lunches each week. I'd love to take over the ministry...and I would totally offer my home...except that I doubt people would drive an hour to lunch! Our prayers were answered this week. The acoustic guitar player & one of the singers offered their home for lunches. All of the details haven't been worked out yet...but at least we have lunch this week! Praise God!

AAAAHHHH Brennan!

Oh man....

Brennan has been screaming since Friday. Like, not crying...but screaming. He's also been running low grade fever, and not eating at all. I mean really not eating. He drank 7 ounces of formula on Friday...that's it. That's 1 bottle...and he usually drinks 3. He refused all solid foods that day as well. Yesterday, he ate a little more....but not much...and today, he's still not eating and just screaming. I'm pretty sure he's teething. I think he's trying to cut his top 'fangs'. Poor guy...we have been Tylenoling and Motrining (I just made those into verbs!!!) him around the clock. If things aren't better by tomorrow, I'm calling his pediatrician.

8 Year Anniversary

Today Miguel and I celebrated our 8 year wedding anniversary.

We went to diner at Roy's. This was my second time there, and I have to say, it was the BEST dinner that I have ever had! Miguel had called ahead to make reservations. When we got got to our table there was heart confetti scattered on it. When I opened my menu, it was customized and said happy anniversary Mr. & Mrs. Pacheco. All of the staff spoke to us by name and and everyone said happy anniversary. They really do a good job of making you feel special! Our entrees were taking a little longer than expected, so the manager and our server came out and apologized for the wait and gave us desserts on the house. I can't wait to go back!

I'm Getting Old...

First off, HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY Bianca!!! (Saturday)

Second...that's why I feel old. Bianca is 18!!! I met her when she was about 6 MONTHS old. I have known this family for about 18 years...isn't that crazy?!? My baby Binks is 18 years old.

Last night we celebrated her birthday. I was going to miss the party b/c I was scheduled to work, but when I got to work there was a scheduling mix-up, and I was scheduled for 2 hours later that I should have been...so I was able to make the party!

So You Think You Are a Rockstar?

We had a game night with family at our house last night! It was the first one that we've hosted in a while, and we had so much fun playing Guitar Hero World Tour!

My inner rockstar came out!

Brennan Crawling

Brennan is officially crawling. He doesn't do the traditional crawl...it more like what I described a few posts ago, only, now he's 'perfected' this crazy looking crawl. You have to see him do it...it's rather entertaining.

Harry Potter is Tonight!

Yeah!

I'm so excited! Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince comes out tonight! A bunch of us got tickets to the midnight release. Whitney is already in line at the theater. She is second in line!!! I'm SUPER excited!

Playdate

Valerie and I got together yesterday for lunch. We brought the boys to Chuck E. Cheese to play. We all had such a great time! Colin and Christian had so much fun running around and playing on the rides. Brennan just kind of laid in his stroller, but at least he was in a good mood.

I wish Val and I could do this more often!

Better

Thank you for all of your prayers. I am doing as best as I can right now. Please continue to keep me in your prayers. Hopefully I'll be back to normal, or as close as I can soon enough with regular updates and such.

I'm going to go back and put up a few back posts.

9 Month Comparison

Colin - TOP Brennan - BOTTOM

9 Months Old

My baby is 9 months old today. I can't believe it. He's a little person. He has a little personality. He's adorable and cute.

Brennan is eating stage 3 jarred foods and we've also introduced a bunch of 'real' foods. He eats chicken, ground beef, bread, pasta, potatoes, etc.

Brennan still isn't quite crawling just yet. He tries so hard, and gets sooo frustrated. I'm sure it'll be soon, b/c he gets a little better each day.

He will have his 9 month check up next Thursday, so I'll post about that then!

A New Piercing

I got my nose pierced today! I had been wanting to do it for a while now, and finally got up the courage to do it! I like it, but it is going to take some getting used to!

4th of July

After a fun barbeque at France & Felix' house, we went to watch the fireworks at Croatian Village in McKinney. We had a blast!

A Deep Dark Time

Father God, I've just entered into one of the deepest darkest times that a person can go through.

Life as I know it has changed. Things will never be the same. I will never be the same.

I am broken.

Where are you? Where are you when my life is falling apart?

I can no longer smile. I can no longer be happy.

I am broken.

What am I to do? How am I to go on?

You are supposed to be The Comforter...The Father...The Great I AM, but where are you?

Why all the pain? Why all of the suffering? How can you let these things happen?

I am broken.

I act strong. I pretend not to be bothered, but on the inside I am a sensitive girl that can only take so much pain, and I've reached my limit.

I am quiet, and keep things to myself until I explode in hurt, and pain and anger...yet my heart is exploding now.

Has your heart ever hurt? I mean physically. Have you ever felt your heart hurt? I know what it feels like. Every thought feels like a knife twisting in my heart.

I am broken.

Fix me. Put me back together. Heal me oh God, for I cannot do it on my own any longer. I've tried. You know I've tried. But I've failed. I'm a failure once again.

Give me strength, for I am weak and feel there is no fight left in me. Give me something to fight for. Give me a reason to fight, a reason to go on.

Become the core of who I am, the center of my universe. Be the one I can count on when I can count on no one else.

Make things right. Make me right. Heal me. Love me.

For, I am broken.

Amen.